My baby is MOBILE! She's not walking yet but she is very close. It amazes how quickly she learns new things. Just over the weekend she began standing up and using object and or people around her to get to where she wanted to go. It was so incredible to watch her navigate, at times very daringly, on her little feet. She fell a few times but that did not deter her. She's only 8 months old and I already admire her determined spirit.
Some days I really do miss my teeny tiny baby I brought home from the hospital but I do have fun with the little character she has become. I just hope she remembers (though I know she won't) all the good times we have right now. How much I love and adore and sacrifice sleep for her. So when when she's 15 and I'm not cool anymore (who am I kidding I'll always be cool) and she's tempted to think she hates me (because no child of mine would ever verbalize such a thing... I hope), I just hope she remembers that I am the woman who carried her, nurtured her, prayed for her, and will always love her more than anything.
These are just the things I think about because I know that having a girl means inevitably we will butt heads and at some point she will think she doesn't like me. Now I know why it bothered my mom so much when I had my teenage moods. I'm glad we're close and I hope me and Ava will have a close bond as well.
I am working on a "movie" for Ava which is basically just the compilation of all the videos I made during my pregnancy culminating with her birth. (Not her full birth, that was not recorded. Just the moment when I first held her). I am really please with the way it has turned out so far. I am so excited for her to see it but I am wondering when would be the best time? Maybe before she leaves for college, or the night before her wedding, or when she becomes pregnant? I'm not sure when but I hope it'll be something she'll treasure.
Though it's sad to think about I can't help but worry about something happening to me. My biggest fear is that were something to happen to me, she'll never know how much I love her, how much I breathe for her, how much my life changed the moment I found out about her.
...Any way I won't write too much more about it or I'll cry myself to sleep :)
My friend posted this song the other day and I thought it was very sweet.